When God answer the pray 6

God, I can’t stand againts my life. It’s too heavy. I’m exhaousted. God, why You don’t create a lighter life for me?

My girl, it’s not Me who created a heavy life but it’s you who make yourself a heavy life.

What do Yoe mean, God?

Look at yourself, you carry so many bags on your hands. Put them off so you will not bring heavy burden.

But God, I can’t. Those bags are so important for me. How can I let them off.

Handle Me those bags, let Me carry them for You.

Oh God, I can’t.

Don’t you believe in Me?

Ok God. I’ll let You bring this bag. Here God, please carry my bag of job. It’s very important for me.

I know girl. But, you still bring too much bags. Give me another ones.

God, I can’t. I must carry these bags on my hands.

But you know you can’t, can you?

Ok God, it’s still too heavy for me. I’ll give this bag of family to You. Please carry my husband and my kids for me.

I had, always and will. Don’t you think to handle the last one to Me too?

No God. Not this one. I can’t. This is bag of my future and my dreams. I can’t let anyone but me bring it.

Girl, don’t your hands get tired bring it anywhere. Give it to Me. I will take care it for you.

But God, how can I do it?

It’s up to you, wheter you will bring it or let Me carry it. But you know if you bring it on yourself, you will get tired and you can’t stand for it. It’s to heavy for you.

Ok God, please receive this last one. Please carry my future for me.

It’s fine girl, don’t worry. You are exhousted because you keep those bags for yourself, but when you let Me carry them, you can free yourself. Just left everything to Me and I will take care your bags and lead you to best life.

Gambar

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Asking

“Mom, do you know that next week I will be 17 years old?”

“Of course dear, I am your mother, who give birth you.”

“Mom, can I get a big tart cake for my birthday?”

“Ok dear, I will buy you a big one.”

“And Mom, can I have a birthday party?”

“It’s ok. We will prepare a party for you. You can invite your friends.”

“Thanks Mom. You the great one.”

The day before the kid’s birthday, everything is well prepared. They got their house decorated, and the cake was prepared on the table.

“Mom, can I wear this dress for my birthday tomorrow?” aks the kid while showing a picture of dress.

“No dear.”

“But Mom, I really want this dress for my birthday party?”

“No, I said.”

“Please Mom, please buy me the dress, for this time since tomorrow is my birthday.”

The mother gets angry, “JOHN, I said no! You will never wear a dress!”

Maybe you are laugh now. Well, it’s a joke. But think bout it, it’s similar with our life. We ask God for many things and sometimes He grants our wish but sometimes He does not, even we keep ask and cry for it, but He still says no. That’s not because He doesn’t love us, but He love us so much that He will not give any things not apt for us. He will give the right one and the best one for us, since He is our God and knows us best.

Keep try

“Huh… apakah aku akan berhasil melewati tes TOEFL ini?” Aku menghempaskan tubuhku pada sofa yang tersedia di kafe itu. Kepalaku benar-benar terasa berat karena setengah isi buku TOEFL setebal 10 cm sudah berpindah tempat, tentunya kupindahkan ke dalam kepalaku.
“Makanya belajar!” sahut orang yang duduk di sebelah kiriku. Dua kata yang diucapkannya benar-benar terasa menampar pipiku. Aku mengelus pipi kiriku. Tidak sakit. “Kalau kamu nggak belajar ya kamu sudah pasti nggak lulus.” Ingin aku memasukkan gumpalan tanganku ke mulutnya, jika saja aku belum kehilangan kewarasanku.
“Kamu nggak tahu sih, susah tahu…”
“Makanya belajar!” Kembali dia mengulangi kalimat itu. “Tunggu sebentar ya!” Dia bangkit berdiri, menuju ke counter. Aku menyandarkan punggungku ke bantalan sofa sembari mencoba memutar kembali deretan kata-kata yang kuhafalkan tadi, tentunya dalam Bahasa Inggris.
“Nih, punyamu!” Dia menyodorkan cup berisi coffe milk tea pesananku sembari mengambil tempat duduk di sebelahku.
“Kenapa kamu nggak duduk di depanku saja?” tanyaku sambil memainkan topping buble pada minumanku itu.
“Kursinya keras. Enakan di sofa. Empuk.”
“Dasar!”
“Shall we practise?” Dia sengaja memancingku dengan berkata-kata dalam Bahasa Inggris.
“Ohhh… can’t we just have vacation today? It’s Saturday night…”
“Practise makes you better!”
“Whatever. I’m not sure about my English skill. Can I pass the TOEFL test, I mean can I get highest score?” Aku mulai menghisap minumanku. Beberapa topping buble berdesakan saat mereka melewati sedotan menuju ke mulutku.
“I don’t know.” Dia menghisap minumannya. Dalam hati aku bertanya apakah milk latte pesanannya enak. Setidaknya warna putihnya memberiku first impression yang buruk. Aku tidak suka warna putih. Terlalu pucat. “You never know until you try.”
“But, how if I fail?” Aku memperhatikan sepasang remaja yang duduk tak jauh dari kami. Menurutku mereka pasangan yang aneh. Mereka nampak sedang berkencan, maksudku berkencan dengan gadget mereka masing-masing.
“The one thing I know is you will certainly fail if you never try.” Katanya sambil memutar cup minumannya dan mendorong cup itu beberapa centi ke arahku. “You’ve got message from Mr. Calais. Read it!”
Mau tak mau mataku pun bergerak menuju ke cup itu. Seulas senyum mengembang di bibirku saat membaca tulisan yang terpampang di situ. “Ok, you win.”
Liekeas

Bagaimana ini? Aku stress. Rasanya nggak mungkin aku bisa lolos tes TOEFL dengan skor setinggi itu. Kukirimkan BBM singkat kepadanya sambil berbaring di atas kasur. Buku TOEFL setebal 10 cm itu tergeletak di lantai, masih terbuka.
I think you’ve got enough spirit for study. Dia membalas BBM ku dalam Bahasa Inggris. Oh, not again. Kurasa otakku sudah cukup kenyang setelah hampir dua jam melahap buku TOEFL.
I think it’s imposible. I know my skill. I can’t do it. I think I’ll give up.
I think we spoke about it yesterday.
But it’s really hard. I’m not smart enough.
Kutunggu beberapa menit sambil terus melirik blackberry hitam yang tergelat di samping kepalaku. Tak ada jawaban. Aku pun bangkit dari tempat kasurku dan mulai merapikan buku TOEFL yang kutelantarkan di atas lantai saat kudengar suara dari blackberry ku dan kulihat lampunya berkelap-kelip. Dia membalas BBM ku.
What’s this? Dia mengirimkan sebuah gambar yang membuat mulutku terkunci.
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Keep study. You’ll find a way. The fact that you’re afraid is add more reason for you study hard. Dia menambahkan kalimat itu tak lama kemudian.
You win… again. Balasku.

When God answer the pray 5

God, I’m scare about my future. What will happened to me?

Why do you scare? Don’t you believe in Me?

Yeah God. I do. But I think this world get more hazardeous days by days. I read the news about poverty, criminalism, war, famine, natural disasters and so many news that make me have no confidence about my future.

Hahaha… that shows you do not believe in Me. I’m God. Everything is OK under My control.

But God, is there any guarantee for me?

What kind of guarantee do you ask? Is My Word not enough for you?

It’s not like that. I just want a sign. Something like that.

So you want a sign that will make you believe in Me?

Yes.

I told you, that believe come first. Faith comes by believing not by seeing. If you want  sign, have I not given you sign for your ages. Turn your face to the past. As long as you live, didn’t I provide what you need? It’s same with your future. I’ll provide your need in the future. Worry not and fear not as long as you believe in Me and follow my path.

Now do your live today. Let tomorrow worry for himself. And don’t forget to always give thanks for today because today is the tomorrow you worried yesterday.   

I know that’s not easy God. But I’ll try…

don’t give up

Man, differ with machine or computer program, even he knows the result of his action, I mean he can predict wheter he will succes or failure, end even he knows that he will failure, man still keep trying. It’s because men, all of us, we still have hope. We hope for a better future. We hope that something will happened. Even we think it’s imposible, most of us still hope for a miracle. Why? Because we know there is someone there, there is God that walk with us. In the darkest moment in our life, we still hope and belive that He will help us.

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The full quote from Karl Marx is: “Religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world, and the soul of soulless conditions. It is the opium of the people”. But I am disagree. I think we aren’t weak enough for having religiou, believe in God. But it’s the opposite. I think we are strong enough to belive in what we can’t see, God is formless and we can’t see Him like other people. If people believe in what they can see, I think it’s common but believe in what we can’t see, and seems not exist, it’s need a brave heart, because there is no obvious evidence, but yet we still believe.

I think the strong people are not they who can build a wall, or fortress, for refuge, in spite of it’s they who build a bridge and walk across it to the other side. The strong people are not they who have no weakness, but they who show their weakness because they strong enough to admit it.