When God answer the pray 13

God, where are you God? Where are you?

I’m here My son. What happened? Why are you crying?

God, you know. You know what happened. You know that I just ruined my exam. I ruined everything.

I do know…

Then, why didn’t You help me? Where were You? You know I got bad comments. When presenting my work, the professors criticized me. I’m done, God. I won’t pass this exam. However, You did nothing to help me. You kept silent and let them attacked me cruelly.

 My son, I did help you. When you get the topic that you had to make a presentation, you were really happy, weren’t you? I know you excel in it so I chose it for you.

Ok God. You are right about that part, but still I ruined it. You knew from beginning it would happen, did You? I know that You did it on purpose. Did You want me failed?

Of course not My son. Don’t be angry with me. I did everything for your sake. Didn’t you remember that you almost lost your chance to take the exam? It was Me that helped you. I let them gave you one more chance when some of your friends didn’t get the chance. For doing it, you even didn’t thank Me…

Ok God, I thank You. I admit You’re right…

About their critics, wasn’t it good for you? You knew what were you lacking at and you could improve yourself. I really did it on purpose. I wanted you to learn something.

I admit that I was not good. I was disappointed with myself and I wanted to blame it on someone. I knew what they had spoken was right. But still, I couldn’t accept it. No matter how much I learned, the fact that I ruined my exam would not change.

Stop judging yourself. Instead of weeping, you should be grateful for everything you have. You have had a chance to take the exam and you have got some critics which are good for improving yourself. About the result of your exam, trust it on Me. You don’t have any idea about what am I doing but keep complain on Me.

God, I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I don’t thank You. I forget to thank You… It just really shatters me. I’m done…

I’m not yet done even you are. I’ve did everything for you and I still do it. Don’t lose hope, my Son. Believe in Me and you will see what will I do to you.




….and they live happily ever after.

That statement always used on the ending of fairytales or bed time stories. But, what does it mean? Have we ever thought what kind of live they would live so it could be called live happily ever after? Would Snow White and Prince Charming find no problem after they married? Or would Red Riding Hood come back safely to her house after leaving her grandma’s? Well, what actually live happily ever after means, or what is happiness?

A friend of me always posts some pictures like these.


When I asked her why did she do it, she just answer it was happiness. According to her, happiness is not having a wonderful thing or something great. On the other hand, it’s just a simple thing. Little things that make us happy, those are happiness. Maybe many people feel so hard to be happy, because they don’t realize it. They have high standard of happiness, so high that make it hard to be achieved, or just say that we, human being, never know what satisfy is and always feel less.

Learning from my friend, I try to be grateful for everything in my life, even the small things too. According to me, happiness is not having something great, or achieved the highest achievement, but it is enjoy each detail of our life, every moment with a grateful heart. There are so many ways to be happy. Happiness is a choice, whether we choose to be happy with our condition or not, so let’s be happy…

Bersyukurlah – Be grateful

Hidup di Dunia Penuh Syukur

Living in Grateful World


Bersyukurlah atas orang yang mencela anda, karena mereka telah meningkatkan kebijaksanaan anda.

Be grateful of people who insulted you, for they contribute for your wise.


Bersyukurlah atas orang yang menyandung anda, karena mereka telah meningkatkan kemampuan anda.

Be grateful of people who tripped you, for they strengthen your ability.


Bersyukurlah atas orang yang menelantarkan anda, karena mereka telah mengajarkan kemandirian anda.

Be grateful of people who abandoned you, for they teach you to be independent.


Bersyukurlah atas orang yang melukai anda, karena mereka telah mengikis buah karman buruk anda.

Be grateful of people who hit you, for they eliminate your bad karma.


Bersyukurlah atas orang yang menipu anda, karena mereka telah memperluas wawasan anda.

Be grateful of people who deceived you, for they enhanced your knowledge.


Bersyukurlah atas orang yang menyakiti anda, karena mereka telah melatih ketabahan anda.

Be grateful of people who hurt you, for they hone your patience.


Bersyukurlah kepada semua orang yang telah menjadikan anda tetap teguh menuju jalan keberhasilan.

Be grateful to all people who make you stay strong on your way to success.

The fair unfair life

I think this life is unfair. Look at the surrounding of yours. There are so many people starving while the others are having abundant food. There are so many people homeless, who sleep under the dark sky, when the others buy the gold dog house for their dogs. Even there are so many righteous people who suffer while the wicked ones are sitting on the thrones and laughing for the ridiculus of goodness.

But when I think again, somehow I believe this unfair life is fair enough for us. God was created us diferently and each of us is unique. I believe He created the condition that support us, even it’s the opposite of what we want, but somehow He support us with strenght for overpowering it. I can’t imagine the poor people that don’t have house, they sleep under the bridge, in the darkness of city shadow, but yet, they still survive. I think if it’s me, I won’t make it, I can’t stand for it.

I can’t understand how can the poor survive. I think my life is hard enough, but their is harder than mine. But yet, God keeps them and feeds them. He’s taking care of them. God’s providing their life. My mind can’t accept it, it’s out of my mind, but my heart keep it. That’s why I said He gives us the unfair life that fair enough for each of us.

I enjoy watching the television program that show the live of poor people. In one episode, it showed widow with a mental illnes son. They were poor, and their life was hard, even harder because of the son. But the mother said, it’s because her son, she keep her spirit of life burnt. Somehow, her unperfect son gave her a life purpose. It was very awesome. I thought somehow God was fair to them, even their life was hard, but God made them could continue their life. I can’t explain my feeling but that’s what I think, and what I feel.

It’s seems like the master who gave his money to his servants, each one was given different sum of money, each one is different, according to their ability. Think bout it, it seems that it’s not fair, because the master gave different sum of money to them, but in the other way, it’s fair enough because each of them was given according to their ability. Problem appreared when we thought it’s unfair and we complained, then we did not do anything for the money. It was ourselves that set our life horrible. Take a look the poor people who were simply grateful bout their simple life, they lived happily even they lacked for money, food and comfortable life. At least, it was what we think, but maybe it’s not what they think. In spite of complaining bout their life and wanting abother life, they simply enjoyed their simple life.

I know maybe this can’t be accepted. I said before, it’s out of my mind. But somehow my heart told me for believing in this life, the perfect unperfect life that  He created, this fair unfair live we face. Still, try to enjoy your unfair life. It feels a bit beautiful when we smile this life.


These are a short messages between Leo with his friends, Olive, Vera and Edo in their BBM group.

L    : Guys, I watched Japan movie and somehow I feel jealous with their live. I wanna be live like the movie I watched. I wanna be someone like the character in that movie. I think it’s cool, and it’s awesome live in Japan, go to the beach at summer break and make snowman in winter season, and then there are also some festivals. Look at my life here, what is good with it?

O   :  Hahaha… if it’s what you want, why don’t you move there?

V   : Well, I think here we have some festival too, like Pekan Raya Jakarta…

L    : But it’s not cool…

E    :  Don’t complain Leo. Be grateful with your life. You have no idea about their life, and maybe indeed they are actually love not their life too…

O   : Wow, Edo, you speak so loud =)  but I’m agree with you. Leon, what makes you think like that?

L    : Yeah, I just get tired with my ordinary life. You know me. I’m not handsome, not rich, and I think my life is totally boring…

V   : Don’t compare yourself with others Leo, each of us is unique and we have our personality as who I am. You are you. And you have some great things. Think bout your grades in school. You are smart…

E    : And you’re kind…

O   : You are a good friend too… I think Edo and Vera agree with me.

V   : Of course we agree with you,  Olive.

E    : Have you ever imagined that the people you envy maybe were envy you too? So stop complain. Nobody perfect. Accept your life and live it! You should know yourself better…

O   : Oh and I think accpeting your life doesn’t mean you totally love it, but still you can make yourself enjoy it…

V   : Thus, that movie only two hours, I think they record something good to be showed, but if you consider it in your daily live, I think it will end like your life now. I remind you, it’s just a movie that have short time, not an evelasting life.  And the character is created by the movie maker so it’s not real.

O   : 100 points for Vera. Leo, if you born there, there in no guarantee if you will satisfy with your life there. We know, human never feel enough and never get satisfy with what they have.

E    : Guys and girls, we talked much here, but Leo is response not. Leo, where are you???

V   : Don’t tell me he just ignored us.

O   :  Leo, I’ll kill you if you don’t show yourself!

L    : Sorry guys, I just watched the stars in the dark night sky. Well, it reminded me when I was little I used to watch stars on my rooftoop. I’ve forgot about how beautiful my life goes on. Hahaha… If I born in Japan maybe right now I am not having chat with you guys… Thanks for being my friends…