Just be you…

No matter how good you act, they who like you will always praise you, but they who dislike you will always find a flaw in your deeds.

No matter what do you do or you don’t do, they who love you will always be pleased, but they who hate you will always mock you.

It’s ok. You can’t change their heart. Instead, it is their choice to like you or to dislike you.

But you can do one thing, just keep be yourself.

The righteous one need not praise and haters can do nothing for blocking his marvelous deeds.

Anyway, do what is right and let your pure heart shines.

When God answer the pray 12

Hi God, where are You?

Here I am, My son. Now, what is it, what are you going to complaint? Please take your time. I am here, listening to you.

God, You told it as seem as I always come to You for complaining…

I am not wrong, am I?

Yeah You are right. I always have been come to You for complaining everything about my life. You are totally right.

Oh, and one more, not only complaining, you are blaming Me too. So, what is your case today?

Oh God, You make me feel guilty. I’m ashamed of myself.  , I’m not standing here for complaining or blaming You, at least it is not today…

So what do you want from Me?

I just want to discuss with You. Our conversation last time, when I complained, ok You right it was a complain, You asked me to think about my problem. Now, I come here to tell You something…

I wonder what is it, please tell Me…

I’ve been thinking about it, everything happened in my life, the happy moments and the sad ones. I’ve passed much hardness as long as I live. You know, I always asked why it has to be happened when I faced big problem. I thought and thought but I couldn’t understand. There were so many reasons, so many answers that were possible for answering it.

I knew You are God and it was Your right to decide the things would happen and the would not. I knew too that I was a mere human. What was I, instead of abandoned me, You loved me, protected me, and invested Your will on me. I couldn’t find any answer, but it was for Your glory for letting everything happened in my life, the good ones and the bad ones.

Please continue, I’m listening…

Even I still couldn’t understand why did You let it happened, but I tried to believe it was for my sake and to glorify Yourself.

Yeah, I think you got the point. Mere human of course can’t understand God’s mind, but believing will reveal everything. It is ok for you not knowing everything. Instead of knowing, I asked you for believing.

I’ll try to believe in You. It’s not easy.

Well, you right, it’s easier for believing in visible things rather than invisible God, isn’t it?

Haha, You’re right God. You make me feel ashamed again. Anyway God, thanks for being patient with me…

You’re welcome. Thanks for promising to believe in Me…

When You’re silent

When You are silent, I used to think You forget me or You don’t care about me anymore

I used to ask ‘why Lord… why this happened to me… and why You keep silent…  do You angry with me?’

Somehow I blamed You, blamed the others, and blamed the condition happened

I wanna hear Your voice and wait for your miracle… but You still silent…

 

In Your silent, I asked and asked…  I asked everything…

Until I know that Your silent lets me correct myself, to find what is my true self…

In Your silent You keep working, You never leave me but always be here

 

And now I realize… when You are silent it doesn’t mean You hate me

But it’s because You love me…

 

Gambar 

“Remind me who i am”

A song by Jason Gray
 
When I lose my way,
And I forget my name,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don’t wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places,
When I can’t remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.

When my heart is like a stone,
And I’m running far from home,
Remind me who I am.
When I can’t receive Your love,
Afraid I’ll never be enough,
Remind me who I am.
If I’m Your beloved,
Can You help me believe it.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You, whoa.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You.
That I belong to You.
To You.

I’m the one you love,
I’m the one you love,
That will be enough,
I’m the one you love.

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You, oh.

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.

 

I vs me…

Sungguh suatu gambaran yang baik di mana kata ‘I’ yang digunakan untuk menunjuk diri sendiri sebagai subjek dalam bahasa Inggris selalu ditulis menggunakan huruf besar, tak peduli di mana pun letaknya dalam susunan kalimat. Hal itu dapat dipandang untuk menunjukkan manusia yang selalu berpusat pada dirinya, mengutamakan dirinya, menjadikan dirinya sebagai yang utama. Suatu paradigma yang wajar dan umum di dalam dunia yang cemar ini. Sedangkan kata ‘me’ yang menunjukkan manusia sebagi objek barangkali dipandang sebagai suatu kebodohan, kelemahan, ketidakmampuan di mata dunia. Padahal hal yang benar adalah ‘me’ bukan ‘I’ karena kebenarannya manusia bukanlah subjek tapi objek, Tuhanlah yang menjadi subjeknya.

Sebenarnya musuh utama manusia adalah dirinya sendiri. Nafsu, keserakahan, keinginan pribadi lah yang membuat manusia menjadi makhluk yang jahat, brutal, bahkan tak berprikemanusiaan. Seringkali manusia menyalahkan setan atas apa yang dilakukannya, padahal jika mau jujur sebenarnya manusia sendirilah yang dengan penuh kesadaran mengikuti hawa nafsu dan keinginannya, dengan atau tanpa bujukan setan. Natur manusia yang berdosa membuat diri manusia tak lagi sempurna, melainkan dipenuhi oleh kebusukan. Hal yang palit sulit adalah mengalahkan diri sendiri, menyangkal diri. Bagaimana cara mengalahkan diri sendiri, hal itu mustahil karena jika diandaikan pertandingan, dua orang yang memiliki skill sama jika bertarung tak ada yang menang. Hanya dengan bantuan orang lain maka kita dapat menang, dalam hal ini dengan bantuan Tuhan.

Dengan menyadari posisi dan status manusia di hadapan Tuhan, juga di dalam dunia ini maka seharusnya dapat membantu kita untuk menempatkan diri, bertindak dan berprilaku. Sebagai objek maka manusia adalah sasaran yang dikenai predikat, bukan pelaku predikat itu. Dalam hal ini Tuhanlah yang bekerja, melakukan pekerjaan, dan manusia adalah sasaran karya Tuhan. Maka sudah sepantasnyalah kita menempatkan diri sesuai posisi dan kapasitas sebagai objek.

Yang selalu terjadi adalah sebaliknya, manusia ingin menempatkan diri sebagai subjek, menjadikan dirinya pusat dari segala sesuatu, dan menyingkirkan Tuhan. Manusia menjadikan Tuhan sebagai objek pemenuhan kebutuhannya. Manusia memperhamba Tuhan, dengan menurunkan posisi Tuhan hanya sebagai pemberi berkat, pengabul permintaan, lalu apa bedanya Tuhan dengan pesuruh yang selalu kita suruh ini dan itu. Sebuah koreksi bagi kita semua. Di manakah kita memposisikan diri saat ini. Apakah sebagai ‘I” atau ‘me’?