When God answer the pray 13

God, where are you God? Where are you?

I’m here My son. What happened? Why are you crying?

God, you know. You know what happened. You know that I just ruined my exam. I ruined everything.

I do know…

Then, why didn’t You help me? Where were You? You know I got bad comments. When presenting my work, the professors criticized me. I’m done, God. I won’t pass this exam. However, You did nothing to help me. You kept silent and let them attacked me cruelly.

 My son, I did help you. When you get the topic that you had to make a presentation, you were really happy, weren’t you? I know you excel in it so I chose it for you.

Ok God. You are right about that part, but still I ruined it. You knew from beginning it would happen, did You? I know that You did it on purpose. Did You want me failed?

Of course not My son. Don’t be angry with me. I did everything for your sake. Didn’t you remember that you almost lost your chance to take the exam? It was Me that helped you. I let them gave you one more chance when some of your friends didn’t get the chance. For doing it, you even didn’t thank Me…

Ok God, I thank You. I admit You’re right…

About their critics, wasn’t it good for you? You knew what were you lacking at and you could improve yourself. I really did it on purpose. I wanted you to learn something.

I admit that I was not good. I was disappointed with myself and I wanted to blame it on someone. I knew what they had spoken was right. But still, I couldn’t accept it. No matter how much I learned, the fact that I ruined my exam would not change.

Stop judging yourself. Instead of weeping, you should be grateful for everything you have. You have had a chance to take the exam and you have got some critics which are good for improving yourself. About the result of your exam, trust it on Me. You don’t have any idea about what am I doing but keep complain on Me.

God, I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I don’t thank You. I forget to thank You… It just really shatters me. I’m done…

I’m not yet done even you are. I’ve did everything for you and I still do it. Don’t lose hope, my Son. Believe in Me and you will see what will I do to you.

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War room movie comment

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Few months ago, I know it was very long time but I found no time to write so I’m writing now, I watched a very good movie, I thought. Its title was War Room. It was about a wife that had difficult time with her husband. With the old woman’s help, she started to pray for her family. And you know, her family started to change. Her daughter started to pray for her parents, and finally her husband changed to, after he got fired from his company. As, the story passed, her husband had a struggle with his sin. He had stolen his company goods and at that time, he didn’t know what should he do. Gave back the stolen goods would brought him to be prosecuted. Finally he gave back the goods that he stole and amazingly, instead of prosecuting him, his boss asked why did he do it.

That’s the synopsis of the movie. When I watched it, I thought that everything happened in the rest of the movie started by a simple act. It was a prayer from the wife, of course after the old woman, her client urged her, almost forced her, to start praying for herself and her family. Instead of blaming her husband, she should correct herself first, came to God and asked forgiveness. Then she should put everything, her problems, her husband, her daughter in God’s hand. The first point that I got was each of us had to start from ourselves. If we wanted a transformation, we should transform first. It was impossible if we wanted our surrounding changed but we did nothing. The second one, it was not easy to overpower ourselves, our ego, our pride and let God took control. But it was a must. If we confessed Him as God, it meant we had to let Him worked as God. Trusted Him and He would brought everything for our sake. You knew, He could do everything, but it was ourselves that didn’t let Him be our God. We pushed Him from our life and didn’t give Him any chance to make our life beautiful.

The third one, I was really amazed with the husband act. He was repent and ready took a risk for paying his sin. It needed courage to confess our fault and got willingness to take responsibility, no matter how much its cost. In the movie, the husband was ready to be jailed for his deeds. It was not easy, man. Then it was told than he got grace since his boss decided not to prosecute him, but his boss came and asked why did he do it. I myself truly believed that God would not keep silent. When we started to do something right, He would help us too. But, it was us that first had to take an action.

Another part that I liked was when their daughter got a competition. Her team didn’t get the first winner. I really appreciated it. In this life, we would not always get what we want. But, how would we react when it happened, I meant when something we hoped was not happened. Ok, maybe, not maybe but it must be hard for us. We did have choices. We could sank in our sadness or we could chose to give thanks no matter what happened and be happy.

And, the last one, the movie was started by the old woman, the wife client commitment to help others. If the old woman kept silent and did not asked about the wife spiritual life and her family relationship, maybe their marriage would still in trouble, or they could be divorce. You knew, take attention to other was important. The simple act was praying them. But if we had capability to help them why we didn’t do it? I want to close this writing with statement: Every small act, even it’s just a pray can bring a great impact, so don’t stop praying. If you never pray, you are not yet late to start it.

 

When God answer the pray 12

Hi God, where are You?

Here I am, My son. Now, what is it, what are you going to complaint? Please take your time. I am here, listening to you.

God, You told it as seem as I always come to You for complaining…

I am not wrong, am I?

Yeah You are right. I always have been come to You for complaining everything about my life. You are totally right.

Oh, and one more, not only complaining, you are blaming Me too. So, what is your case today?

Oh God, You make me feel guilty. I’m ashamed of myself.  , I’m not standing here for complaining or blaming You, at least it is not today…

So what do you want from Me?

I just want to discuss with You. Our conversation last time, when I complained, ok You right it was a complain, You asked me to think about my problem. Now, I come here to tell You something…

I wonder what is it, please tell Me…

I’ve been thinking about it, everything happened in my life, the happy moments and the sad ones. I’ve passed much hardness as long as I live. You know, I always asked why it has to be happened when I faced big problem. I thought and thought but I couldn’t understand. There were so many reasons, so many answers that were possible for answering it.

I knew You are God and it was Your right to decide the things would happen and the would not. I knew too that I was a mere human. What was I, instead of abandoned me, You loved me, protected me, and invested Your will on me. I couldn’t find any answer, but it was for Your glory for letting everything happened in my life, the good ones and the bad ones.

Please continue, I’m listening…

Even I still couldn’t understand why did You let it happened, but I tried to believe it was for my sake and to glorify Yourself.

Yeah, I think you got the point. Mere human of course can’t understand God’s mind, but believing will reveal everything. It is ok for you not knowing everything. Instead of knowing, I asked you for believing.

I’ll try to believe in You. It’s not easy.

Well, you right, it’s easier for believing in visible things rather than invisible God, isn’t it?

Haha, You’re right God. You make me feel ashamed again. Anyway God, thanks for being patient with me…

You’re welcome. Thanks for promising to believe in Me…

When God answer the pray 11

God, where were You when I had a big problem? I looked for You but You were not here. You left me alone.

My son, I was here. I always be here with you, I never left you alone.

But You didn’t do anything. What was the different, whether You were be with me or not. Still, I had to face my own problem by myself. And it was because You did nothing.

So you blamed Me?

Yes. You told me that You would help me, always with me, but I couldn’t believe it was happened, You let me faced my problem alone. I was angry with You. You promised that You would walk before me, but…

I knew I shouldn’t do it, I shouldn’t angry with You… I just wanted to know why did You let me faced it alone. You were God, instead of doing something to help me, You doing nothing. I just couldn’t accept it.

My dearest son, there was a time I help You and there was another time I restrained Myself from helping you. But believe Me, I did it for your sake…

How could You say it was for me? If it was for me, You should help me God.

Remember when I was with Peter and my other disciples on the stormy night. We were on the boat and my disciples were so fear. At that time, I calmed the storm…

Yes I knew it. You did help Your disciples…

But there was another time when I had to let Stephen died because of his faith in Me. Yes, I could save him, but I didn’t do it.

Why?

I had My own plan. As a human being, you couldn’t understand it. But I didn’t ask you to understand Me. What did I ask you is you believed in Me. Just did it.

But God, how can I believe in you?

You know when you were kid, your parents did everything for you, they helped you eat, took a bath, even read bedtime story for you could sleep. But when you got older, you had to do all of them by yourself. Were your parents cruel so they let you did it and didn’t help you anymore? Of course not. They still loved you, but you had to do it by yourself. You had to get matured. They always be with you, watching you, but let themselves not helped you as long as they thought you could do everything by yourself.  But if you got some problems and you couldn’t handle it, still they were ready to help you solved it, right?

Yeah… but it was different… I should do it because I had to do it…

No, it was same. You had to grow in your faith too. And you had to learn believing in Me, even I didn’t help you at that moment…

I know it will be hard for you to accept it, but you have to do it. Think bout it first, My son…

… ok…

When God answer the pray 10

Day 1

God where are You? I have a problem. It’s very big. God, You know the man working in my company, the newbie. My boss hired him few weeks ago. Oh God, it is a disaster. I find that he is a thief, a hacker. And I think he is on the way to steal any secret information about the company.

Day 3

God, why are You keep silent? It has been some days since he hacked my server. I had said to my boss, but he didn’t believe me. What should I do?

God, please answer me. Oh, don’t keep silent. Please do something God, please…

Day 6

Oh God, why don’t You do something? You know, this morning I heard that the man, the thief, the hacker, he would get promotion. It’s not right God. Please do something, don’t let it happened.

Day 7

God, where are you? It has been a week, and there is nothing changed. You did nothing so I decided to do something. I will make it sure that everyone knows his true face. He is a wolf in a sheep form.

Day 10

God! Why don’t You help me? You know I did it for good sake, but my boss still didn’t believe me. Instead of got reward, my boss blamed me. I even got punishment for my good intention. It’s not fair God. And You, You God, You did nothing! You didn’t help me even once. Please answer me, speak to me God…

God, You keep silent. You did nothing even you know it is not right. He is a wicked man. He is a thief, but you let him got success in his evil way. God I can’t believe You. Why do You let it happened…

Day 13

God, You don’t answer me even a single word. You had left me alone. You care not me anymore. Tomorrow he will be promoted. And I can’t do anything to prevent it. It is You who let the wicked one get everything he wants. I don’t want to speak with You anymore.

Day 14

God, sorry for misunderstanding You. Sorry for blaming You. Now I know that You are God who do not leave me even for a second. God, You had known that my boss knew everything about him, and he pretended to believe him, hadn’t You? I’m sorry God. I knew nothing, but thought that I knew everything. Moreover, I didn’t believe You and thought that You blessed the wicked one, instead of punished him. Please God, I’m sorry.

Dear Son, I was silent didn’t mean I did nothing. I just want you keep believe in Me. I have my own way to deal with him. Doubt not, but believe in Me. Am I not the God who blesses the good men and curse the wicked ones?

God, I’m sorry. Please forgive me…

I do, but promise Me that you will trust Me in all condition. Can you do it?

I’ll try God… I’ll try. I’m promise…

When God answer the pray 8

God, please listen to me. I want to pray for my enemies. Do not forgive their sins o God, for they have done many wicked thing to me, while I have done nothing wrong to them… Please God, let them be overthrown before you, deal with them in the time of your anger…

My son, I know what you’ve done and what they’ve done. But should you pray for their calamity?

God, look at these people… You know what their plot. They are so wicked. They keep crimes in their heart. They hate me because I did the right things and want to make me vanish…

My son, you know that I teach you to love your enemies and pray for the people who persecute you…

I know God, but in the Old Testament, there is also a curse for the enemies, since You also curse the people who against You…

Dear, should I say that I am God? It’s right that I am God who curses the ones that against Me and do not keep my words, but I am God who loves my lost children and forgives them. That’s why I told you to love your enemies and pray for them who persecute you…

But God, it’s not make sense!!!

You know that I’m God who gives rain to both of the right people and the bad ones. I let sun rise for the people who love Me and they that hate Me.

I know God. But You know that they, the wicked people are not deserve receiving Your blessing!!!

Are you the god or I am, so you should decide who are deserve receiving My blessing and who aren’t? if you examine your heart, will you get your heart white and there no any sin?

But God, at least I did not do what they did to me and to You…

You did not what they did doesn’t mean you are more righteous than them. And while you pray to curse them show that you are same with them… And there’s still one point that you have to know. I punished my people with love. A father beats his son because he loves him and wants to teach him to be a good one. But you, look at yourself. You keep hatred in your heart and you beat your brothers with hatred.

You right for that point, I hate them who hate me…

Keep my command in your heart to love your enemies so you will get an eternal life…

Can I do it God?

You can and you should, because I have done it before and will keep do it… Think bout it how if you have two kids and they are hate each other and the older one ask you to kill the younger, how are your feeling?

Even your brother did a mistake and hurt you, will you not forgive him, since he is your brother? It’s same with you. All of the people in this world are my kids, and honestly I don’t want them hate each other…

But the reality is they did it to me…

I know son, I just ask you not to follow their deeds… what have they done to you, let Me who handle them. I will pay them fairly for I am God who don’t show favoritism…

Ok God, I’ll try to put them in Your hands, please help me to keep Your command, loving them who persecute me…