A little thing in my head…

As a human being, worrying is part of my life. Do not know what will be happened tomorrow get me really fear. I’m categorized to man who always plans everything perfectly before doing something. That’s why do not know what is going to come really makes me powerless. I don’t know what will I do tomorrow, what kind of job will I get, will I be able to get job that I wanted, will I get my dream comes true, and there are still many things that I get in my head, the things that I have no idea at all.

You know, it is true that as human being, we have many things we worry. We worry much about the future. I think it’s ok. Everyone has their own struggle about their life and their future. But something that suddenly slips into my head is what I need, the Lord will provide them. Wherever it is according with our will or not, it’s a different case, but I’m totally believe Lord will give the best for us. There’s nothing that He won’t give to us. Even His life, it was granted for us. Jesus gave everything He had. He left His throne in heaven for us. Whatever He did, He did it for us. Until the end of His life, He gave His life for us, for saving us from eternal death. I think it’s more than everything we ever asked and imagine.

That consciousness makes me realized that there is nothing in this world worthy enough to be worried. The Lord will provide us, everything we need, it has be given to us. You just need to believe and trust Him. Job, livelihood, money, husband/ wife, kids, all of them are small matters for God. Since He has given His life, the most precious one for us, there is nothing that He will not give to us, but we have to remember as long as it’s for our own sake.

Finishing my writing, I want to give thanks to Jesus for His love. And one another thing, try not to worry too much. He’s here with us and He will help us and provide us. Have a meaningful Good Friday…



On the way 6

Last night, when I was walking home with my friend from the mall, we passed through some peoples, the bajaj driver that slept beside their bajaj. They slept on the pedestrian, and the left their bajaj stayed beside them. “Look at them, how can they sleep like that, without bed or pillow and over the hard rock,” my friend said. “And they can sleep deeply, like it looks so comfort. It was almost midnight and it’s usual for us being a little bit afraid when walking in the dark of night, but they just sleep and it seems doesn’t matter where and when they sleep, like they don’t care about anything. ”

My friend’s comment lead me thought about it, how could they slept so comfort, how can they lost in their heavy sleep. If it was I, I was sure that I couldn’t even closed my eyes in their condition. First, I couldn’t sleep in the uncomfortable condition like it. And the second, I was afraid for the wicked people who could harm me. But looked these people. How could they do it? Well, I thought because they had no worry about their life. They didn’t think about their possession, what they had, maybe because they thought they had no precious things so they were not disturbed by worrying their treasures. But when it was me, I worried the wicked people would rob me, or seek after my money. Why did I worry? Because I was afraid for losing my treasures, because I thought I would lose my comfort life.

You see, many of us worrying about many things because we set up our heart over them. We bound our heart to the world wealth. Learn from our Buddhist friend, they emptied themselves. They wasted everything and they left the world life, I mean the comfort and fun life -according to us- and because they had nothing that bound their heart, they could life peacefully, no worrying anymore. But I thought it couldn’t be happened to us, because we fulled ourselves with everything that the world offered, we were after money, fun, comfortable life, updated technology, luxurious lifestyle, and there are still many things that we were after. I myself admit that it was hard to life without treasures and I couldn’t imagine how could I life without money. But I thought the important one was not let my heart after my world treasures, because life itself more important than any treasure. It’s true that we needed money for life but without money I thought we still could keep our life, looked the life of our ancestor, the ancient cavemen, at least they had proved it.

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also – Mat 6: 19-21

When God answer the pray 5

God, I’m scare about my future. What will happened to me?

Why do you scare? Don’t you believe in Me?

Yeah God. I do. But I think this world get more hazardeous days by days. I read the news about poverty, criminalism, war, famine, natural disasters and so many news that make me have no confidence about my future.

Hahaha… that shows you do not believe in Me. I’m God. Everything is OK under My control.

But God, is there any guarantee for me?

What kind of guarantee do you ask? Is My Word not enough for you?

It’s not like that. I just want a sign. Something like that.

So you want a sign that will make you believe in Me?


I told you, that believe come first. Faith comes by believing not by seeing. If you want  sign, have I not given you sign for your ages. Turn your face to the past. As long as you live, didn’t I provide what you need? It’s same with your future. I’ll provide your need in the future. Worry not and fear not as long as you believe in Me and follow my path.

Now do your live today. Let tomorrow worry for himself. And don’t forget to always give thanks for today because today is the tomorrow you worried yesterday.   

I know that’s not easy God. But I’ll try…